By Alan Rogers, London
I start with a confession of my own. Feel free to censor it or consider it distracting to your original point, therefore worthy of omission. I include my honest confession as I felt it was relevant.
I am 12 or 13 years old and in laying on our tiled bathroom floor naked. I had just got out of a bath and the room is steamy and I am wet.
I decide now is a good time to see if I can crane my neck far enough to fit my penis into my mouth. I believe most boys attempt this (Auto-fellatio). It is back breaking work, but I manage it.
I think that says more about my flexibility than the length of my penis (remember I was just a boy). I suspect I was more supple then. I suck my own cock for a while. It is a great feeling. It is duplicitous, as I have the experience of the cock in mouth along with the sensation of having a mouth on my cock. It is a bit like tickling yourself.
But my neck and back start to complain so I have to stop. I think I may have tried it once or twice, on other occasions (always in the bathroom) without success, before giving up forever.
Move forward a few years. I am probably 18 or 19 and I am laying on top of my bed masturbating to my favourite fantasy (these are the days before internet and when I had no access to any form of porn). I have not had the chance to masturbate for probably nearly a week and my balls ache with the desire for release. I am not naked this time, but my trousers are half pulled down and my t-shirt rucked up.
I was a skinny 18 year old. You could play my ribs like a xylophone.
I arch my back and close my eyes as I come. My mouth opens in relief. This is a powerful orgasm. I actually manage to give myself a facial. Some come lands in my hair, and some in my open mouth.
For the first time I taste my own semen. I am surprised, but I laugh out loud at the absurdity of what I have just done and reach for the Kleenex to wipe my face. My T shirt has come all over it (that is how I remember how I was dressed). That is going in the bottom of my wash-basket. I hope my mum doesn’t smell it. I remember holding the few drops of semen in my mouth just to get the feel and taste of it before swallowing.
It was the first, but not the last time it happened. It has been a while though, and these days my meat-bag body is not so lithe.
Other than my auto-fellatio adventures, the first sex I ever had was cunnilingus. I never received actual fellatio until I was long married, and then for only a few weeks within my decades long marriage; I believe I am married to Mrs Gorsky (Who would that make me?).
I have long forgotten what a blowjob feels like. Your film therefore is a timely (though slightly sad) reminder of what I have missed.
Though a great story; the Gorsky thing was an interpretation from a joke that became urban legend.
Neil Armstrong never said anything of the sort on the moon. We know this because every word uttered on every mission is listed here: https://www.hq.nasa.gov/alsj/a11/a11.html
That, however makes this film even better in my eyes. It is about the urban legend rather than actual event, but who cares? It rings so true.
Halloween jack-o-lantern being lit then floating off in a cloud of purple.
Have you ever had a nightmare
Zombies, scary clowns, night-time, the usual suspects.
You remembered forever
Close up of ventriloquist dummy face.
27 DECEMBER 1988
When I was 7 years old
I had one of those nightmares
I had various recurring nightmares during my youth. Most of them involved someone thumping up the stairs to get me, only to realise that the thumping was my heart beating in my ears.
Various views of a house at night time. Starts with the outside, then the hallway, then the stairs…
From that night on
I have suffered automatonophobia
The dream was on the worrying side of lunacy
Slightly south of extreme terror
And definitely north of demented
Various shots of scary looking puppets
Because I killed
A wooden doll
Not just any doll
Archive footage of ventriloquist act with top hat and manacled puppet.
There was a similar act in England; ‘Ray Alan and Lord Charles’.
Prologue: the nightmare
Cityscape
The murder of charlie mccarthy
Archive footage of the moon landing with a close up of missy with what looks like a baby’s arm in her mouth. Jesus that thing is thick. Not comparing of course but. Wow.
Not many people know
That charlie mccarthy
Was a member of the puppet mafia
Scary searching. Willem Dafoe with imaginary gun.
And the inspiration for
The insane clown posse
Focus on person in the distance. Laughing woman.
This is humour that is beyond my ken.
That’s what my mother told me
And at first it was
But she was fucking insane
Mother with smiling child.
She told me to kill charlie mccarthy
His last words were ‘I love cupcakes’
Brilliant.
Image of blood pouring down a sink. Old poster of ‘Nut Gulty’
Mock newspaper clipping with a photo of a young girl (Is that Missy?) flipping the bird at the camera. The headline reads ‘Missy Jubilee ruled insane’. The article refers to how she murdered Charlie McCarthy and her whole family and has now been incarcerated in a state mental hospital. Various clips to show how this might transpire; more horror scenes.
ACT ONE
Automatonphobia
Is a fear of ventriloquist’s dummies
And anamatronic creatures
Anything that falsely represents a sentient being
I have not heard of this. Would make ‘Its a Small World’ in Disneyland more terrifying than it already is.
Where do you stand with Dildo’s?
If I had to undergo immersion therapy
And be what you feared
I would be the animatronic shark in jaws
Close up of nose moving backwards and forwards like the shark fin in ‘Jaws’. The music from ‘Jaws’ is playing. This is a visual pun as it is clear that we are witnessing the act of fellatio being performed, we assume by Missy.
Lurking in the shadows
The classic line ‘I think we are going to need a bigger boat’ gets uttered.
ACT TWO
Train crash.
I make films
Like a kidnapper
Makes ransom notes
I think I see what you mean here. You splice video up like newspaper text, so that the resulting film resembles a ransom note jumble of different sources that are assembled to form a cohesive sentence.
Knife cutting up what looks like a raw liver.
Insane people can never be trusted
With lunch wrap
You call it ‘lunch wrap’. I call it ‘Cling Film’ but I guess it is all the same.
Or art therapy
Because they avoid the central question
Lots of images of art and insanity.
Who are you Missy jubilee?
I am a pervert
#metoo
The worst killing
Is that which kills hope
Especially when done by
An assassin
Hiding in plain sight
I am all over this. I expect this will resonate with so many people.
ACT THREE
FAME
Is fleeting
But on the other hand
YOUR TRUTH
IS FOREVER
In this world
You either suck
Or get sucked
I guess I suck then.
I became a film maker
TO RESOLVE
MY SHADOWS
Cut to nude Missy in black and white, leaning over to check the camera. Lit from the left, hair hanging in front.
Film making was medication
To reveal my true self
When people ask me
Did you go to film school?
I tell them no
I went to my nightmares
Because they had an absence of limitations
My style is self plagiarism
After an intercut of a movie theatre at night, we are back to Missy, this time in a dressing gown, open to reveal she is naked underneath. She leans towards the camera. She is wearing sunglasses.
Film schools teach you
There are a million ways
To tell a story
I DISAGREE
There is only one
Monkey leans in towards the camera
The way I saw it
This is how I tell the story
Of a shameful sex act
And the freedom of insanity
Are blowjobs shameful?
I am not sure.
They are certainly rare. They are not enjoyed by many. They are traded for favours. They are for many the first sexual act they either commit or experience. But are they shameful? I do not think so.
ACT FOUR
If buddha went to a career day
What would he have wanted to be
I think he would have wanted to be
A petrified mountain of thought
I just realised this script is full of humour. You have tried to lighten the script from previous ‘heavy’ topics. This is very much a fun film. Thank you.
All I wanted to be
Was a transgressive poet
Who rescued the memories that survived
And show the world
What brain damage looks like
From the inside looking out
Some people talk too much. Others think too much.
I became brain damaged
At a very young age
Headbutting child intercut with girl on a beach enduring what I believe is known as a ‘face fuck’, or ’skull fuck’. She is passive in the fact that she is allowing her mouth and throat to be used as a vagina.
Some things just never leave you
ACT FIVE
Oral horseplay advice for women
I learned two things
Growing up in a hippie comune
- THE IMPORTANCE OF DRUGS
- THE IMPORTANCE OF SUCKING DICK
Hippie women
Are taught from a very young age
If you can give good head
You move up the hippie pecking order
Now I know that there are patriarchal cultures around the world where baby girls are taught how to suck cock. That these cultures ‘train’ the girls to lick and suck a penis presented by smearing honey or jam on the head and getting the baby to lick/suck it off. They grow up with this act ‘normalised’ in their minds.
They are unaware of any social outrage. They are young girls who if presented with a cock, will naturally suck it. They do not feel violated, or stigmatised. But in our culture it is (quite rightly) considered sexual abuse. The child has no say in the matter and has been sexualised at a scandalously young age.
The issue is not with the girls. It is with the perverted men. These are animals that need culling.
The other thing hippie women are taught
Is that no matter what happens
You never talk to the cops
So despite being groomed at a very young age to perform oral sex on demand, you cannot complain, because your societal rules forbade it. Sorry Missy. That sounds like systematic abuse. Loss of sexual innocence. Not good, this is the darkest bit of the film and the one thing that leaves a bitter taste. The rest of the film outweighs this darkness though.
Accidents happen
Mistakes are made
Lessons are learned
And most importantly
GUILT
Is a conceptual legal construct
ACT SIX
The background are various close ups of men apparently enjoying life.
Working out oral sex
My mother taught me
The importance
OF GIVING
GOOD HEAD
She said you can get everything
You ever wanted
If you can give a good blow job
I think she was mistaken. However, oral skills are indeed rare.
There are only two requirements
- HEAD DOWN
- AND FOCUS
My mother was the best
Blowjobber in the commune
That is some claim to fame. I am aware of the ‘free love’ ethic that purports some communes. It does seem to be very Patriarchal though, like the women get little say in the matter. Perhaps I am overthinking again.
I was taught
An ancient hippie whore secret
To give enjoyable head
You need to enjoy giving head
It’s not rocket science
The secret to being good at anything, is to enjoy doing it.
TITLES
ACT SEVEN
Corking the life hole
Sliding a coin into the slot
This is a stand up comedian in black and white. His skit is about how oral sex makes no sense to him from a woman’s viewpoint. It seems to intimate that men have tricked women into performing the act. It is funny because that is how many women see it. It disregards the unselfishness of a giving act, that sometimes it is nicer to give than to receive. That sometimes men need a sexual outlet, and their female partner does not, and that said female partner does not find oral sex a disgusting perverted and gross action that should be avoided at all costs, so performs it as an act of love.
There’s a limit to my patience
With anything that smacks of metaphysics
I squirm at the mention of ‘mind expansion’
Or ‘warm healing energy’
I don’t like drum circles
Or strangers touching my feet
These words resonate with me too.
But when it comes to oral sex
All things old become new again
Not sure if you mean that you enjoy giving head or not.
More titles
Like neil armstrong
For a long time
I did’nt want to tell my story
There is a right time for every story
ACT EIGHT
Good luck mr gorsky
Close up of a collared and leashed Ms Jubilee deftly swallowing a full erection down to the base. A Skill she has clearly honed. Said penis is noticeably hairless, meaning a dedication (from both partners) to this particular branch of the sexual act canon.
When astronaut neil armstrong first walked on the moon
Close up of Missy J’s mouth.
He made his very famous comment to mission control
‘one small step for man. One giant leap for mankind’
We can forgive his grammatical mistake. He should have said ‘one small step for ‘a’ man, one giant leap for mankind. But he fluffed his lines. Stage fright.
This was followed by several less famous remarks
True.
Including the usual com traffic between him and mission control
Before he re-entered the ladder
He made a very enigmatic remark
Missy licks the head of a cock before taking the head into her mouth.
‘good luck mr gorsky’
Nasa mission control thought it was a casual remark
Concerning some rival soviet cosmonaut
I was wondering at first if this was indeed Ms J. The dark hair. The eye makeup seem to point towards it being someone else. But the close up and loss of focus at times make this classic footage from our heroine.
However, upon checking they found there was no gorsky
In either the russian or the american space programs
Over the years, many people have questioned him
These words are accompanied by a demonstration of the art of fellatio.
Asking him what ‘good luckmr gorsky’ meant
Finally on july 5 1995 in tampa bay florida
While answering questions following a speech
A reporter bought up the 26 year old question with armstrong
He finally responded
It seems that mr gorsky had died
So armstrong felt he could answer the question
When armstrong was a kid
He was playing baseball with his brother in the backyard
His brother hit a fly ball
Which landed in front of his neighbours’ bedroom window
His neighbours were mr and mrs gorsky
As he leaned down to pick up the ball
He heard mrs gorsky shouting at mr gorsky
‘oral sex?!’ mrs gorsky said angrily
‘you want oral sex!’
‘you’ll get oral sex when the kid next door walks on the moon!’
And with that Missy J gets her tongue coated in come.
That same year
There was a man walking a tight rope between two tall buildings
At the same time, in the same city, just10 miles away
There was another young man
Who was receiving oral sex from a 95 year old woman
By co-incidence they were both thinking the same thing
‘don’t look down’
LOL. I have not heard that joke.
What’s the definition of a philosopher?
Someone bright enough to find a job
With no heavy lifting involved
Deep.
CREDITS
Archive footage of Missy giving another blowjob. This one appears to be outside. Intentionally grainy and colour washed. Possibly a video taken of a video monitor showing the original film, but it is overlayed with other shots from what appears to be a music video. As before the video is a POV (Point of View) shot taken by the owner of the penis. Again, from this angle (so close to the face) it is hard to verify that this is Missy J, but the footage fits and the hair is blonde here.
Til we meet again
Missy stands up and we can see she is naked under her robe.
Cut to little girl (Missy?) giving the bird. This image has featured in numerous films.
My mother told me that life isn’t always about pleasing yourself an d that sometimes you have to do things for the sole benefit of another human being
I agreed with her but reminded her that was what blow jobs were for
If only.
This was the most fun video you have made. However, I suspect you you have intentionally pushed the boundaries of ‘code of conduct’ here. If you are trying to fly under the radar, then close up shots of face-fucking may not help.
Hope you are well and enjoying the warmer weather.