Hi, love your videos and the sharing of your soul. Don't forget that being a deviant is only the label that you have pinned to yourself. You assume it is negative because of the unreasonable conditioning of your parents attitudes. You are the person that you are and should not be weighed down by your parents expectations of what is right and what is deviant. Your parents did their best but it is now your time. You are what you are, which is beautiful.
This is what I teach my kids, including my 3 girls.
To be free of others expectations is freedom itself and certainly not deviant!
Have a happy life and keep going.