Subject: Never have I been so intrigued by artDear
Your videos are amazing. Erotic yet tasteful at the same time. They really made me think.
First a little background on me. I consider myself to be addicted to sex, or at least to orgasms. Ever since my first experience of humping a bed in 5th grade I've wanted to feel that nearly every day of my life. And I do, whether it's sex or solo play. But I guess that just makes me a man. Or at least that's how society seems to view it.
I have often thought about the sexual repression placed on women in our society. My first girlfriend in college had never been in a relationship and had never even masturbated at the age of 18. I showed her a whole new world. We explored each other sexually, learning and growing with each experience, for nearly two years. Eventually we decided things weren't going to work out because we were mostly in it for the sex. Two years later and she still hasn't been satisfied since our last encounter. I feel so bad for unleashing this eroticism in her and no longer being able to provide. I feel like my current relationship is headed in that direction too. I don't see it lasting forever but all I hear from her is how great I am at sex and how good I make her feel. Once you have your first amazing orgasm there is no going back. It's simply addicting. To take that away from someone just seems cruel. Why can't this country just be ok with sex? We're obsessed with it yet despise it at the same time. Can't they see that sex brings happiness and peace? Bonobo chimps have the right idea.
Anyways, here's the part where my mind is fucked up. I am ridiculously possessive with women I like. Just the idea of them being with someone else enrages me but at the same time even when I'm in a relationship I want to have sex with everyone. (For the record I don't cheat because I can't even imagine how that would make me feel if it happened to me). I want to explore my sexuality and be in an environment where that is accepted instead of being considered 'whoring yourself out'. And I wish I weren't so possessive because I feel that would really interfere with the sexual exploration process. Fuckin' emotions, man.
It feels a bit strange opening up to a complete stranger like this but your brutal honesty in your videos makes it seem 100% ok. I have always been keen on talking about sex with people but until now it was with people I already knew.
I don't really know what I wanted to accomplish with this other than to discuss sexuality with a like minded individual. Your videos were far too compelling and meaningful for me to just have a wank and click away never to read or hear of you again. I hope you respond but if not I wish you the best of luck on your journey. And try not to be so hard on yourself. Sex is awesome no matter what people say. Screw the morals. Embrace it. Enjoy it. Love it.