by Missy Jubilee
‘PSYCHO’ is my 198th film in ‘The Future Sex Love Art Projekt’.
This is the story of Jeffrey Dahmer’s paleo diet, Hollywood lies, real life fragments, violent revenge fantasies, ridiculous bikes, inner world train trips and throwing luggage out of windows like a metaphysical rockstar
If we have a friend, or small group of friends, or family who embraces our imperfections, vulnerabilities, and power, and fills us with a sense of belonging, we are incredibly lucky
Abuse manipulates and twists a child’s natural sense of trust and love.
If their innocent feelings are belittled or mocked, they learn to ignore their feelings.
The child can’t afford to feel the full range of feelings in its body – pain, outrage, hate, vengeance, confusion, arousal.
So the child short-circuits them and goes numb. Feelings go underground
And so Jeffrey Dahmer transitioned from child to adult with severely different predelictions
The mistake ninety-nine percent of humanity makes, is being ashamed of what they are lying about
I want to drag knives over my skin, just to feel something other than shame, but I’m not even brave enough for that
But I am also ashamed of anyone who has eyes and still can’t see
Shame derives its power from being unspeakable
You cannot shame or belittle people into changing their behaviors
You’re weak because you’re afraid of people seeing your weakness. You’re letting shame decide who you are
We live in a culture that is blind to betrayal and intolerant of emotional pain.
The upshot of this perspective is that your suffering would vanish if only you adopted a more evolved perspective and stopped feeling aggrieved.
I was often kindly reminded (and believed it myself), “there are no victims.”
How can you be a victim when you are responsible for your circumstances?