Film release synopsis
Whenever we talk about darkness and light,
the terms seem so abstract
that many consider the answers lacking.
But the answers are in the books you will never read,
waiting all your life in the libraries you ignored,
and the bookstores you didn’t visit.
I am my own Satan,
and evil can’t possibly interfere more in my life,
than what I did to myself.
Darkness is a personal choice
and there’s no reason to feel empathy
for a person who chooses darkness.
This is what they don’t tell you.
Even sleep is no respite.
It’s like waking
from a dream within a dream
and then finding another layer.
The colors more vivid,
the light more lucid,
the fantasy more real.
I dreamt in colors that didn’t exist.
Because I lost them in my dreams too.
Maybe I needed to break a little,
so I could put myself back together,
more beautifully than before
Kintsugi is an ancient Japanese pottery technique.
When a vase breaks,
they glue it back together with melted gold.
Instead of making the cracks invisible
they make them beautiful.
To celebrate the history of the object.
What it’s been through.
And I was just thinking.
My heart is full of gold veins,
instead of cracks.
This makes it possible
to forget all purpose and object,
and just lounge in the picture gallery of the brain,
while forgetting all their promises and threats.
And then like chemist bees
find art’s nectar in the weeds of common things