Missy Jubilee. Sociopath. The Direction of Why
This is the full subliminal conversation between the voices and court ordered mental health professionals within the film
Some are written
Most are said
[Conversation starts…]
You’ve blurred so many boundaries young lady
I guess I feel like I’ve been living my life as two people, and now I don’t know who is in control anymore. I used to believe that people determine their own lives, and yet I think there’s one force more powerful than free will
Our desires?
No. Discovery. And it started 10 years before 1994
How did you get there again?
Rebirth is necessary. And here we go
[Start film]
Roll cameras
Are you recording this? Because everyone carries their prisons with them. You know this right?
Well, then, good morning and enjoy yourself today. If you can. You’re learning and you’ve got the right to make mistakes
Oh, you’re wrong about that. You’ll see
Where are you in your head right now? Where are you exactly?
1994
Tell me what is happening
The pretty thing you’re looking at is me. But it is me who can not see any of what is coming
What is coming?
Fear
What if we can change things?
Do you have any idea the storm I created?
No. But tell me every little detail
Mostly it’s like Breaking Bad on acid. But there’s this one little thing. There was nothing normal about me as a little girl. I grew into the oddest of oddballs. Just me. And my sexuality.
Tell me more
I should never have come to these memories again
But you must. Continue
In 1994, I was 14 years old and my life as I knew it ended at 4.36pm one day when my parents left for the night
What did you do?
I got undressed
Why?
Because that thing that I greatly feared
had finally come upon me. Freedom
That’s a good thing isn’t it?
Mostly, but sometimes in life, a bare assertion is not necessarily the naked truth. It depends whether you were running from the naked truth. Or whether you were running towards the naked truth
What were you doing?
I was running towards the fear. Not away from it
Was fear the earliest manifestation
of your deviant sexual arousal triggers?
Yes
Interesting. Please tell us more
