Missy Jubilee. 050. Deep. As Fuck. Commentary behind the film

50 films at 24 frames a second
Writing self help for the helpless self

This is how I make myself vanish into nothing
This is how I see myself floating on the ceiling
This is how I talk when no one else is listening
This is how I cope when my muse goes missing

I vanish so I can go drowning in a old dream 

Again

This time is not like the first time

This one seems like....

Being relieved

Of the need

To confront the 
Fragility of a father's ego
That can't say two words
Ending with
Sorry

Words
That are wooly
Going round & round
Weaving a coat of self justification
That has been worn wrong
For so long

Projecting angry attacks
In hatespeech sentences
A hurt child 
Born to a drama scene

So perfect
So right
So angry

All the time

When you look in the mirror
Who does it blame?

Is it always the same?

She's leaving again
Screaming
Running away
Hiding
Repeating

Sitting in a black car ready to go
Living her life as a pipe bomb ready to blow

And everything she built 
That’s all for show 
Goes up in flames

In just

24 frames


Adapted from Jason Isbell '24 frames'