Full transcript of episode 31.2 Weapons. To watch film, click here
Transcription with thanks to Bernie Glynn
Weapons of Mass Distraction
If this is Art, then what isn’t?
The short version of Requiem, known on the street as Missy vs George Bush
Max: Where are we at 31 films in? Bigger picture
Missy: To answer that I would have to go back a step
Max: Okay. But make it concise. It’s a short song
Missy: I have been sexually repressed all my life
By three weapons of mass discombobulation
Shame. Fear & self-loathing
Max: Nice geopolitical tie-in
Missy: Thank you. But stop interrupting.
Anyways. The first 30 films were exposition
To tell you a little about myself and give you some context
My history. Parents. Head problems. Addictions. Issues
It was background so you could understand the next part of the projekt
Who did what to whom. When. How. With what
I feel I have dealt with the shame by completing 30 films
Next comes dealing with the disabling intense fear
Max: Fear of what?
Missy: Fear of failing. Fear of not being good enough. Fear of the fear.
Fear that the emotional exhaustion driving me back into depression
That’s what I thought it was about. But it’s not
Max: How so?
Missy: it’s about the fear of who I am without shame
I don’t know that Person. I don’t want to exist as a ghost
I have learnt this person over 28 years. I might unlearn it in 250 films
But what fills the vacuum in between? I fear that. A lot
It’s never good stuff that fills a vacuum. Look at Iraq
Every film is sucking a little bit of bad stuff out of my soul
But it’s also the only me I know
It feels like I’m dying
Very very slowly
Max: Be all in or get all out. There is no half way
Missy: What do you mean there is no halfway. Do you live in a vacuum?
Max: No. I live with you. In a house
Missy: It was rhetorical
Max: I know
“Peace is always beautiful.” Walt Whitman
The upcoming episode called Cirque du Freak deals with my sexual fascination with the dancing of gay men
So there’s that
Welcome to my mind
As they say in software coding. Garbage in. Garbage out.
I got 99 problems and normal ain’t one of them