Self Obliteration

i bury myself in them from time to time
once in a while
for fun and to keep the fuckingness going in my brain 
i'm not supposed to ... 
perhaps no one is
but sometimes
those times
you just wanna get lost into doubt 
instead of aware of boredom 
that day
i was lying on the floor listening to records with the volume very high
drunk and druged 
and i remembered the way you talk about your feelings
the way you express yourself 
so i got to ask you 
i had to

Manuel Fernandez

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