I can see you wanting to get in to a guys head and understand them - and
that is why you have been focused on them.
I love your art so much because I can relate to it completely. I can see myself in the sexual situation you are in and how you have that control to just let them watch and and not go over and just fuck them right there. That is what I love about it so much.
You are really open and free but you're still over thinking some stuff.
I think - like - what other people would, say who cares if I would care what they say.
I would be so unhappy. You have to be happy. And if they're not - oh well - at least someone is.