Missy Jubilee. 042. Sunshine NSFW

Martin Fellner

Just to make this clear, I have no idea why I'm writing this to you.

Watching your videos and observing that they absolutely do not arouse me, but instead amuse me mostly, has brought me to an interesting observation about my own use of porn. I do not drink alcohol, or smoke, or really use caffeine for that matter, but I do use porn like other people use alcohol: To get myself into a certain kind of mood. I am engaged, but my fiancé lives in Thailand as she finishes her bachelor degree, and thus I have lots of unattended sexual needs. I have videos and pictures of her, and even one video of us having sex, and I find that the only reason why those work is because they remind me of what it is like to have sex with her, they conjure up the feelings that I want to have. Before I met her, I just felt horny and regular porn showed me what I should want, since I didn't know myself, being a virgin. But now I don't want just want sex, I want sex with her, and when I watch porn, or your expertly crafted videos, I do not get aroused until I start thinking of her. Essentially, porn has stopped working for me, unless it makes me think of things I could do with my sweetheart in bed. Another "problem", if you will, with your videos, is that the text makes me think intensely, distracting me mostly from any nakedness going on in the background, and I hope I don't offend you when I say that your body is background to your words. And last but not least, for what it's worth, I think the only way in which you're not normal is that you're extremely brave. Being naked means quite literally shedding your armour as a human being, and it's certainly not something I could do in public without reasonable purpose (Since I'm in the military, I have been naked around other people in public, but I'm sure you'd agree, that's different to your situation). Anyway, thanks for your attention, enjoy your art, I'm glad if I have returned some value with my contributions. Martin from Austria"