First unicorns are really dumb, like jackalopes but totally different. Second, I wish there was a way you could be somewhere at 6pm, outside, peaceful, watching the sunset which is one of the greatest shows mother nature puts on and that would help your fear of dusk. Third, you should write along with your remixes and movies. It might be therapeutic and people would buy your books, memoirs or what ever you would consider it.
To the third point and how you said why anyone would know what you are doing or feeling and it may be boring. I can speak for myself but I find it all very interesting and unlike many people, I love to talk about sex and sexuality.