You are normal!
Unconditional love and acceptance is all that you ask... you are peeling away at the hurts to find the benign little girl. Thats something many people cannot do, they are trapped in a 'mould' created by others.
In a way your parents cannot "see" they feel rejected, which is a child like behaviour.
PLease try to see that your parents have only ever," tried to do the best they can with the time information and resources" they had; forgive them and feel strong as you talk from one side of your brain to the other.
You are reviewing information with the time you have and you are using a wide range of resources to undertake your project ~ this is unique and no one can see everything except from your eyes, your dairies, your choreography, your video diaries.