Hey Missy, I've watched all your videos and I have to say your work touches on a lot of what I felt and thought growing up. I know this is quite personal, but have you sought a professional opinion about possibly having bipolar disorder?
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder recently, and I can say that a lot of your work describes the turmoil of that experience. One thing in particular which speaks to me is that feeling that you are restricted emotionally from exploring your unusually deviant sexuality because you are taught growing up that you are sick or perverted. Elaborating, it isn't the high labido that sets us apart, it's that very fact that society has strict lines separating normal sexual expression and morally unacceptable sexual expression, crossing this line is what incites our arousal.