Missy Jubilee. Guilty

Missy Jubilee. Guilty. As Charged. Soundtrack Release

What Was Monster About? It's About Me Going To Jail

I Was The Bear In The Forest. The Bears Were Prisoners

The Crazy Forest Is Either

Jail, Or Psychiatric Detention

Either Or

It's Going To Be One

Or The Other

In 30 Days


There Is No Lonelier Place

Than This Place Right Here

Where I Kill Every Day

And My Blood Has Turned


Because There Is No Soft

Word Play

Just Accusations

With Hard Edges


I Am On Bail On 

Serious Assault Charges


Assault Occasioning Actual Bodily Harm

The More Serious Charge Up From That Is


I Am One Charge Away From

Having Killed Someone


2 Weeks Ago

An Hour Before A Funeral

I Lost My Temper In A Situation

I Was Trying To Get Away From.

I Flung A Chair

It Hit Someone In The Face

They Have Lost Their Teeth


I Think This Is Rock Bottom 


Made Of Broken Teeth

And Accusations

But Maybe

Rock Bottom

Isn't A Home

Just A Place

And Moment In Time


It Was An Accident

But I Did

And I Take Full Responsibility For It

I Did Not Mean To Do It

But I Did It

I Am Sorry

And I Am Devastated

I Am Beyond Devastated

I Am Lost

And It Is My Fault


My Shit Is Not Together 

In Any Way Shape Or Form At The Moment

I Am Spiralling

Every Time I Come Up

It's Still There. It Won't Go Away

Then I Go Down Again


There Is No Deep End

In This Pool

It's Just A Black



There Is A Part Of Me 

That Is Really Trying To Hurt Myself At The Moment

My Teeth Feel Like They Are Filled With Acid

Dipping Into Words Like

Get Away You Monster



There Is Something In Me

That Strikes Out When 

I Am Pursued

Or Cornered

Or Screamed At


I Explode, Trying To Get Away

In Escaping From What

Won't Stop Tormenting Me

I Can, And Have, Caused Traumatic Damage

I Make No Excuses 

It Is What Is

Or Was


If You Keep Tapping A Bomb

With A Rock

It Will Probably Explode

After That

And No-One Will Ever Think

About The Rock

And Why It Kept Tapping Out

Its Strategy.

The Bomb Is The Only Story In Town

With Conscience

Being The Only Air Left To Breathe


I Need To Stop The Current Trajectory

Of My Life

At All Costs

I Need To Change Every

Constituent Part

Of That Life


I Have Given A Whole Pot Of People

Exactly What They Want

And I Need To Allow Them To Rejoice

Without Me Dulling

Their Celebrations


They Were Right

I Am Wrong

The Weight Of Evidence

Proves The Situation

And The Situation Is The Cost

Of My Actions

And It Will Cost All

Every Single Thing


I Am In A Binary Situation 

With No Good Choices Besides Lawyers, Money & No Fun

Co-Incidently And Concurrently


I Have 2 Options

Plead Guilty - Look At Serving 6-18 Months

Plead Not Guilty And Destroy Someone Else 

Lifting A Lid On Their Hornets Nest

That They Refuse To Open


These Are Not Good Options

Because I Know

A Big Part Of My Life Is 

Finished Right Now

I Don't Need To Plead

Guilty Or Not Guilty

To Know That


I Am Told I Am Guilty

By A Million Different Voices

Every Day

That Is My New

Unfinished Symphony In The Key Of



I Know What My Decision Is

I've Known All Along

I Always Preferred The Cut Of Staunch

To Weasel

When You're Staunch, You Do What's Right

I Know What I Did. And What I Didn't

But What I Did Wasn't Right

I'm Going To Take It On The Chin

And Accept What Is Coming Down The Pike


It Is Very Bukowski. 

But A Little Bit Too Much So


My Feet Can't Even Touch The Ground



I Am Going 

To Stand Up In Court

And Construct

This Hard Place

Between A Bunch Of


Representing Intentions

I Did Not Have


So I Can

Hang It

Around My Neck Til

I Decay

And Everyone Can Walk By

And Utter A Little Sigh

And Say,

See, We Knew Along

One Day

She Would Prove Us Right

And She Did

So Yay


Yay. A Prologue Of Scale & Planning


I Went

From Thinking About 

Mexican Film


With The Potential

For Story Scale


Being On Bail

And Considering Whether

They Have Premiere Pro

In Jail


I Wanted Story


Just Not This

Force 10 Coffin 







It's Just Jail


You'll Prevail


This Toothed Whale


Remember Moby Dick?

Maybe Don't

Unless You Can Read



They All Get Derailed


But Maybe Yours

Can Be A Heroic 


With Epic


Told Through


Prison Mail


Looking Back On Your Own


Flaming Condensation Trail

As Your Ultimate 

Fucked Up

Holy Grail


Or Maybe It's Not


Maybe It's Just Something Else

And I Have No Fucking Idea About Anything


Actaully It's Probably That Because

I'm Guilty As Fuck


It's All Authentic

Because It Authenticates

Its Self